My Tumbling Journal.

Hello~

Suzy. Fifteen year old. A member of the Santa Clara Vanguard Cadets. I enjoy dancing, spinning, reading, writing, drawing, loving, and hugging. ♥

I've had a long broken history. I believed that i've been through most of it when it came down to depression, self harm and suicide. I never know though. If you want to know more about me, feel free to message me :) If you ever need someone to talk to, I will always be here to listen! :)
I warmly give out hugs to those who need it, and a open mind and ear to those who need someone to listen to them. ♥

February 23, 2012 8:27 pm

Competition in two days. I’m sort of excited, not really to be honest, im actually really tired of some of the things that are going around, and i dont want to talk behind someone’s back and complain, but it just throws me off when people miss out on practices, or sits out, and it’s entirely fine for them to do that. It’s not even like they’re dying, or you cant walk. I mean people it’s two days before a competition! Like i said, if you cry at the end of a competition because you screwed up big time for not practicing… well i wont be comforting you and trying to cheer you up. It’s just frustrating, i dont enjoy going to practice and trying to put all my effort into it and seeing people not trying. Guys tell me how many months have you had to get your triples, to get our work from our first song perfected. Seriously why are you messing up? It was like the first thing we ever learned, so you havent been practicing? eh? Am i the only one that practices. I try, i really want our guard to be better, i want us to have fun, and walk out of every competition, cheering and happy like last years championships. Remember how amazing that was? We’re not going to ever get near there if we dont practice. Maybe im fretting too much. Maybe we’ll pull through on Saturday. Maybe we’ll do just fine. But Maybes are also very very sketchy. You guys are in guard because you love it right? Then why do you guys go to practice to complain, sit out, stand there, not practice, and not put full effort. What’s the point then?

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